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Thursday, August 12, 2010

Shake Them Haters Off!

SHAKE THEM HATERS OFF!


A hater is someone that is jealous and envious and spends all their time

Trying to make you look small, so they can look tall. They are very

Negative people. Nothing is ever good enough!



When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters... That's

Why you have to be careful who you share your blessings and your dreams

With because some folk can't handle seeing you blessed... It's dangerous

To be like someone else... If God wanted you to be like somebody else.

He would have given you what He gave them.



You don't know what people have gone through to get what they have...

The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they don't

Know my story... If the grass looks greener on the other side of the

Fence, you can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too.

We've all got some haters among us!



Some people don't like it that you can:

-Have a relationship with God

-Light up a room when you walk in

-Start your own business

-Tell a man/woman to get lost (if they aren’t about the right thing)

-Raise children without both parents being around & not ask for a dime from anyone

-Haters don't want to see you happy

-Haters don't want to see you succeed

-Haters don't want you to get the Victory



You can handle your haters by:

--Knowing who you are and who your true friends are

--Having a purpose to your life

--By remembering what you have is by divine prerogative and not human

Manipulation.



Purpose does not mean having a job. You can have a job and still be

Unfulfilled. A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called

You to be. Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.

Fulfill your dreams! You only have one life to live...when it's your

Time to leave this earth, you want to be able to say, I've lived my life

And full-filled my dreams ... I'm ready to go HOME! Only the Strong

Survive



When God gives you a favor, you can tell your haters, "Don't look at

Me...Look at who is in charge of me..."

Watch out for Haters...........BUT most of all don't become a HATER Yourself!


** Please Note **   I Did Not Write This.. But I Love IT!!!!!

~*~ Value Of Friends ~*~

It is a difficult time sometimes to come to the rational that some people in your life have no "value" to give! 


Now, when I say value and I am not talking about assets, bank accounts, money, cars, house, apartment... I mean to take the time and really look at how much value a person can provide is a difficult yet "eye opening" situation.   It always amazes me how fast you can let someone walk out of your life.  Well there is a saying that fast as you come is fast as you go!  Nevertheless it is a person’s value that should determine how fast he/she can leave. 

What happens when you value more to a person than they value to you? I believe that there comes a point where we have to look at the value of all the people that we deal with on a weekly, daily, month and hourly basis.  After looking at who adds value to your life then you can look at the people who do not any value and realize that it is not their value that you are looking at but more so their immediate satisfaction of being apart of your life.   Every one that is apart of your life is not necessarily there for value but more so for a season or reason! 

Look at your list of friends and mates and see how much value do they really have in my life... Some of the nuances of life that we experience can be avoided because we are giving someone who has no value in our life the placement of someone who has longivity and value....  An associate can not be a friend because a friend’s value is more than an associate or aquantiance can ever be!  Know your value to someone and make sure you know the value of your peers to you.... Just a food for thought!

How Many Faces Would Someone Say That You Have?


How many faces would someone say that you have?
I am perplexed at times because I often take time to look at myself in the mirror and say how many faces would someone say I have! It is just something that makes me think from time to time. I try to keep it real and I definitely try to be seriously real and truthful with the people who I call "my peeps"....  In life we all have to have someone or peeps that we can remove the masks of the many faces we portray and be real wit!  I do not see the purpose of calling someone friend, brother, sister, cuz or companion if you can not keep it real with them...   MESS is something that creates itself in a relationship (whether it be friendship, or a partner relationship) when the bond between you and the next person is not kept true and one of you have put on a face that should not be there...

If you are my friend and I am yours then I am going to be real with you and keep the faces out of who we are to one another... REALNESS, lets keep it that way because you can not be close to someone if you are not real with them. I believe that there is a certain level of realness that should come from your closer relationships with someone. If you knew me for years then you should be a support of me... well "should" is the word and sometimes we have to look at ourselves before we start to evaluate whether or not someone is being themselves or have a face on! 

My friends know that if I call you friend then that means I love you regardless of the situations that may arise.... BUT... if I call you friend I expect that you are going to tell me the real deal and not the face that you put on with others to make it seem like "A" when it is really "B".  It astonishes me how people can throw lies so much to the point that when he/she opens their mouth the first thought that you have is which lie are they going to tell today!  LOL 

That brings me to the face called "center of attention"...  Do you always have to be the center of attention? Albeit, I am the type of person that does not mind working in the background I am yet still at times brought to the center of attention... NOT because of who I am or what I know but because of what I do... Some of the church people’s know that is called being "blessed" and what you sow in silence...God rewards openly! 

Nevertheless, my point is remove the faces that we carry sometimes and show people the real you. It is appreciated more when getting to know you. No one is perfect and no one has all of their stuff in perfect order. So if you want to be valued by your love ones, colleagues, friends and associates... Be true to yourself by being true to them! Take off the faces of life, the faces of living in the past and not for the present or future, the faces of lies, deception and confusion, the faces of false pretenses and disrespect... Be yourself because when you are yourself … that’s really "A GOOD LOOK!"
 
*** Please Note *** I did not write this. I came across it and it hit home for me especially after these past couple of years with me weeding out my true friends and all. I hope this strikes a nerve in others the same way it did me.

Friday, January 8, 2010

How soon is too soon when it comes to falling in love?

I don't usually post personally blog entries (other then my poems) but I wanna try something different.

I just want to do a quick relationship overlook before we get to the current stuff. First off, I've never been big on casual sex. Don't get me wrong I've had my share of 1 night stands and flings; I'm a man, a gay man at that. However, I have always been more into being in actually relationships with people or at least having 1 steady sex partner even if we don't consider it a "relationship" he's my go to guy for when I have an itch that needs to be scratched if your catching what I'm throwing.

So I've been dating this guy for about 3 months now. We met online exchanged a few messages for like 2 months, then finally traded numbers & started chopping it up over the phone. We chatted on the phone everyday for damn near a month before we finally made plans to meet in person. We made plans to meet up for brunch on a Saturday afternoon & just chill to see how things went. Needless to say everything went good. We had a lovely convo over brunch (which was good because I got to see his facial expressions which I couldn't see over the phone). After brunch we went back to his place & no we did not do the do. We chilled, smoked a few blunts, watched movies & talked all night. Let me not forget I did end up spending the night at his place, but that was because it was late & he didn't want me to travel home. He's such a gentleman. Anyways, since things went really well that time we decided to keep seeing each other. If it isn’t broke don't fix it, right? Well, that is until it breaks lol. So we kept dating openly for a month before we both decided to take the next step & make it official. So now that we're exclusively dating all has been well. I get frustrated at times because of our work schedules we can only spend time with each other on the weekends but we make it work. Now I’ve been in a few relationships in which very few were real serious long term relationships but until now have I been able to say to myself, "damn I could marry this man." I've bounce my thoughts around to friends but that got nowhere being that most of my friends either just love living the single life or are just in love with the idea of being in love but sadly have never experienced it. Now out of the ones that know where I’m coming from I’ve gotten mixed feedback, naturally. It's not surprising that most ask me if I love him. My answer is yes. I do love him & I find myself falling deeper & deeper for him the more we spend time together. Am I head over heels in love with him? No. However, if we keep going at the rate we are, then that’s not far away at all. For everyone that asked me: “Don’t you think it’s too early to be in love?” My question to them & ya'll readers is " How soon is too soon when it comes to falling in love?” I mean I don't think anyone can determine that. I'm not saying it was love at 1st sight (in which I do believe in). I believe that you can't put a time limit to determine the intensity in which 1 person cares for another. I have been in love, it went sour but it was good while it lasted. I know how it feels to be in love. I also know that I’ve never felt a love like this before, his love, the greatest love that I’ve known thus far & nothing will take that away (fingers crossed, lol). So to bring back the question, How soon is too soon when it comes to falling in love? My answer would be, "It's never too soon. It’s whenever you heart is ready. So to everyone with the negativity, my haters & the bitter, broken, scorn bicthes out there I promise you 1 thing. This love is gonna last. Ask me next year how things are going & I’ll be more then happy to tell ya'll "Just fine, Thanks!" Hopefully I’d have a ring on this pretty little finger of mine, lol. That’s just wishful thinking. I'm out ya'll. Please comment! I love the feedback.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

A Letter My Ex wrote me the 1st time he got locked up...

I wasn't going to post it but everytime I read this I smile. He was my 1st love. I remember the day I got this in the mail.  Enjoy!!!

I Cant Blame U

I know there are times where you doubt all my love
I cant blame u
I know youre upset that Im doing this time
I cant blame u
I know there is hard because I left u alone
and still I cant blame u
But listen
We started out simple with words I would say
directed @ u as u walked away
Would ask u a question just 2 hear speak
You never know when your voice was so sweet
Would stop u @ times just 2 look @ youre face
Everyone of those times, I remember the place
Still remember the time I knew that I could spend my life with a person I knew was good!
It was beautiful we crossed paths
Never knowing we were each others other half
Remember our walks & everything we spoke
How sex was always apart of the joke
As time crept by we felt more secure
knowing in our hearts this love was 4 sure
Slowly we did things 2 teach us our ways
Only 2 awaken 2 much brighter days!
The days went on and stronger we felt
that if this love were ice it would never melt
Til one day I awoke & changed it all
Yet before it happened I made the call
I said "Today seems funny; its not my day"
Yet I still went out & projected my way
Now today has come & my skies are grayer then blü
But whatever u desire
I still can't blame u
Written by Keith
to Joseph 04.18.05


Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Saggin Pants

Letter from a college student


The other day, a friend of mine visited me in the lobby of my dorm just
to chat while her laundry was drying. As we were chatting, two young
freshmen came by. One of the boys wanted to 'talk' to my friend (as in
date). She asked him how old they were, and both of the boys replied
18. My friend and I both laughed hysterically because we are both 22
years old. After my friend left, the young men were still hanging
around and one wanted to know how he could gain her interest.

The first thing I told him to do was to pull up his pants! He asked
why, and then said he liked saggin' his pants. I told him to come over
to my computer and spell the word saggin'. Then I told him to write
the word saggin' backwards.

S-A-G-G-I-N = N-I-G-G-A-S

I told him the origin of that look was from centuries ago. It was the
intent of slave owners to demoralize the field workers by forbidding
them to wear a belt as they worked in the fields or at any other
rigorous job. In addition, men in prison wore their pants low when
they were 'spoken for'. The other reason their pants looked like that
was they were not allowed to have belts because prisoners were likely to
try to commit suicide. And, saggin' pants prevents you from running.

We as young Black people have to be the ones to effect change. We are
dying. The media has made a mockery of the Black American. Even our
brothers and sisters from Africa don't take us seriously. Something as
simple as pulling up your pants and standing with your head held high
could make the biggest difference in the world's perception of us. It
is time to do right by ourselves. We need to love and embrace each
other. No one is going to do that for us.

It all comes down to perception. What people perceive is what reality
to them is. We have to change not only the media's perception of us,
but we need to change our perception of ourselves.

Remember all eyes are on you Black Man. All eyes are on you Black
Woman. All eyes are on your Black Child. People point the finger at
us and expect us to engage in negative and illegal activities, to
manifest loud, boisterous behavior, to spend our hard earned money in
their stores, buying goods we don't need, or really want. We have
allowed not only the media, but the government and the world to portray
us as a 'sub-culture.' They have stripped our culture down to the
point where the image of Black people is perpetuated as rappers,
athletes, drug users, and consumers of junk food, expensive tennis
shoes, expensive cars, expensive TVs, cell phones and not investing in
homes for our families.


We are so much more!!!!!!!


To all our Black Men: It's time to stand up. There are billions of
Black Women who want to do nothing more than worship the ground that you
walk on. We are so in love with your potential. We want to have your
back, we want to love, support and cherish every ounce of your being.
But with that you have to show that you are willing to be the head of
our households. You have to prove yourselves worthy of our
submission. We need you to be hard working...Not a hustler. We need
you to seek higher education, to seek spirituality. We need you to
stand! And trust us; we will have your back. We know that it gets
hard. We know you get weary. Trust and believe that there is nothing
that a Black Man and a Black Woman can't handle with GOD on their side.


To all our Black Women: It is also time for you to stand up. It is
time for you to stop using our bodies as our primary form of
communication. It is time to be that virtuous woman that Proverbs
spoke of. You cannot sit by the wayside while our men are dying by the
masses. You are the epitome of Black Love and It starts within you.
You need to speak with conviction to let not only our Black Men know,
but the world, that you are the Mothers of this world. You are so
powerful. You are so beautiful. You need to love and embrace every
blessing God has given us physically, emotionally and spiritually.

For all our Black Children: We need to love them. We need to teach
them. We need to stand up for them. We need to protect them. We
need to show them that there are no 'get rich quick' schemes. We need
to tell them that they WILL die trying if they submit to a life of crime
and deceit. We need to teach our children that no one will love them
the way we can. And being a basketball player, a rapper, or a drug
dealer is not reality. It's not realistic and only a small percentage
of people ever make it as a rapper or professional athlete. We need to
teach our children that we can be more than rappers and athletes. We
can be the owners of these sports teams. We can be the CEO's of OUR
fortune 500 companies. We need to believe in literacy. I am almost
certain if we were to look back to the 1930's and 40's, the literacy
rates for Black American Children are probably still the same.
Please Keep This Going & Have a wonderful day

'This is the year of empowerment.' God will empower us to accomplish

things this year that will be mind blowing

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

My Epiphany Of Hope

Dear Jesus Lord,

You've made my day, through the thunder & rain reminded me it will be o.k.

You've looked after me in all my hard times, and still I rejected you and got down grime.

In my heart I knew you existed, even when I tried to act like my soul was unlisted.

As an offspring of yours I know I'm a winner, however made some wrong turns & lived life a sinner.

Again you've touched my soul & my spirit flies wavin', and help me to realize I'm worthy of savin'.

For all my negative deeds, I look to you and amend.

Heavenly father, I love you, thank you.

Amen

Loving Me 4 Me

I used to look outside myself for love, never thinking about my god above.

I used to do things to be considered "cool", and in the end I was branded the "fool".

I used to think it was wrong to be unique, putting up a social front to play hide & seek.

I used to dumb myself out and follow the "band wagon", not accepting my qualities as gifts and should have been braggin'.

I smoked weed, sniffed coke and popped E. With intentions of setting my mind free, looking back now it was b/c I was uncomfortable with my sexuality.

But now today even through all that shit, I'm happy to say... I'm Loving me 4 me and wouldn't have it any other way.

Good guy, Bad guy

Good guy, Bad guy ~~> Question- Which one am I?

Growing up my mother told me being a good guy was the way to be, going through a mental conflict that I could not see.

In school I always stuck to the positive ways, coming home with report cards flossin' all A's.

Somewhere along the line I don't know where I went wrong, somehow anger & misery became the name of my song.

Dropped out of school and into the wrong mix, coming home high & disrespectful calling my mom a fat b*t*h.

I remember the time she tried to confront me with the switch, telling her you mis-heard me I said I had a bad ich.

My life spiraled out of control and all out of wack, it's a miracle I didn't result to smoking crack.

With the past being gone and the future so near, however now I'm living in a present of fear.

So back to the question: good guy, bad guy which one am I?

I've always been a good guy, just livin' a bad guy lie.

Scorpio

S- Shy, Sexy, Sassy, Sensual & Sweet.
C- Caring & Cunning, Gifts from god what a treat.
O- Open- minded.
R- Respectful, is how I live day by day.
P- Passionate & Persuasive, but in a good way.
I- Intelligent & Insightful.
O- Opinionative, you know people always tell me I can be a powerful mofo.

I just used each letter of this astrological word to show, each quality within to make me a proud SCORPIO

Funny People

You know sometimes people say the damnedest things, shoutin' out rude remarks hoping it stings.

They look at you funny talking & walking around, or even minding your business not making a sound.

And for strange reasons I don't know why, their stupidity & ignorance make them say things hoping you cry.

However It's only together chillin' with the boys, is when most of them choose to make the most noise.

When you finally had enuff & wanna get it poppin', it gets so quiet you can hear a rat pissin' on cotton.

Then again all alone It's like they have stealh, staying out of the radar you know homie your playin' yourself.

I don't know why, why they can't see. Nothing they say bothers me.

If you can't take a hint, I'll offer some help. You wouldn't be a problem if you just shut the fuck up.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Getting Sick Of A Friend

Why is it that when you don't wanna be bothered people take it personal?


I have someone that I used to be close with. I wouldn't say we were bestfriends, but we hung out a lot. Over time I've been seeing little things here and there about the person that I don't like. He Spends more time talking about bullshit. Things that i don't think anyone cares about. If he's not talkin bullshit, he's spreading othe peoples' business. It pisses me off because he talks about people like his life is glitter gold. When infact the truth is, it's really not. Far from it . Most of my other friends that know him tell me that he tries to be like me. I didn't see it at first but more recently I've been seeing it. It's not just me tho. I'm convinced he doesn't know how to be himself. BUT! How could you be yourself, if you don't kow yourself? IDK all I know is that I can't stand to be around him. What makes it even worse, we work together. I mean like share a fuckin office. Looking at him now gives me a headache. Hearing his voice and mostly when he laughs makes me wanna vomit. IDK what wrong with me. I wish I knew why I feel that way towards him. I mean he hasn't done anything personally wrong to me. Besides him being 2-faced, sneeky, a gossip queen, drama queen, shit/rumor starter, and just royal pain in the ass I guess he's ok. I thought for a while it was just me. It's not. My other friends that know him also feel the same. They also agree he is annoying. Let's just say he's not a person you'd invite 1st to a party. Still I don't know if he does this on purpose b/c he wants attention(for people like him any attention is good attention). But As for me I don't like to be around him. I do not enjoy nor to I desire to talk to him anymore. Everytime I talk to him I get mad at myself because I know b4 the convo starts i'm gonna be over it. Yet I still entertain the convo and get over it, as usual. So I've started to just not speak at all. I mean it's working for me. Besides I really have nothing to say to him. I know he feels some sort of way. I don't care. I'm not gonna be like my other friends tho. I'm not gonna say how annoying he is whens he's not around and KiKi with him when he is around. Nope them I would be just as fake as him. I forgot to mention that he was fake. Very phoney. The phoneiness like oozes from his pores. §o he's just another tally in my "I had to cut you off" list. Do I feel bad? Sometimes. However only on the strenght that he has done nothing to me. I can't help the fact that he's an annoying fuck. I can only help how I let it affect me. §o if i'm not around the shit, I can't smell it. Well I think I've expressed myself enough about this topic. I know if the person I was talking about reads this he's gonna do what he does best.. Talk, talk, talk. I don't care. He can talk shit and read me all he wants. That just proves my point!!! Anyways, I Just needed to vent and release.