My Epiphany Of Hope

Dear Jesus Lord,

You've made my day, through the thunder & rain reminded me it will be o.k.

You've looked after me in all my hard times, and still I rejected you and got down grime.

In my heart I knew you existed, even when I tried to act like my soul was unlisted.

As an offspring of yours I know I'm a winner, however made some wrong turns & lived life a sinner.

Again you've touched my soul & my spirit flies wavin', and help me to realize I'm worthy of savin'.

For all my negative deeds, I look to you and amend.

Heavenly father, I love you, thank you.

Amen

Loving Me 4 Me

I used to look outside myself for love, never thinking about my god above.

I used to do things to be considered "cool", and in the end I was branded the "fool".

I used to think it was wrong to be unique, putting up a social front to play hide & seek.

I used to dumb myself out and follow the "band wagon", not accepting my qualities as gifts and should have been braggin'.

I smoked weed, sniffed coke and popped E. With intentions of setting my mind free, looking back now it was b/c I was uncomfortable with my sexuality.

But now today even through all that shit, I'm happy to say... I'm Loving me 4 me and wouldn't have it any other way.

Good guy, Bad guy

Good guy, Bad guy ~~> Question- Which one am I?

Growing up my mother told me being a good guy was the way to be, going through a mental conflict that I could not see.

In school I always stuck to the positive ways, coming home with report cards flossin' all A's.

Somewhere along the line I don't know where I went wrong, somehow anger & misery became the name of my song.

Dropped out of school and into the wrong mix, coming home high & disrespectful calling my mom a fat b*t*h.

I remember the time she tried to confront me with the switch, telling her you mis-heard me I said I had a bad ich.

My life spiraled out of control and all out of wack, it's a miracle I didn't result to smoking crack.

With the past being gone and the future so near, however now I'm living in a present of fear.

So back to the question: good guy, bad guy which one am I?

I've always been a good guy, just livin' a bad guy lie.

Scorpio

S- Shy, Sexy, Sassy, Sensual & Sweet.
C- Caring & Cunning, Gifts from god what a treat.
O- Open- minded.
R- Respectful, is how I live day by day.
P- Passionate & Persuasive, but in a good way.
I- Intelligent & Insightful.
O- Opinionative, you know people always tell me I can be a powerful mofo.

I just used each letter of this astrological word to show, each quality within to make me a proud SCORPIO

Funny People

You know sometimes people say the damnedest things, shoutin' out rude remarks hoping it stings.

They look at you funny talking & walking around, or even minding your business not making a sound.

And for strange reasons I don't know why, their stupidity & ignorance make them say things hoping you cry.

However It's only together chillin' with the boys, is when most of them choose to make the most noise.

When you finally had enuff & wanna get it poppin', it gets so quiet you can hear a rat pissin' on cotton.

Then again all alone It's like they have stealh, staying out of the radar you know homie your playin' yourself.

I don't know why, why they can't see. Nothing they say bothers me.

If you can't take a hint, I'll offer some help. You wouldn't be a problem if you just shut the fuck up.